I’ve always been someone that keeps to themselves . . yet social when i have to be of course . . it’s always been me, myself and i, i prefer it that way . . i like my own company . .doing my own thing . . singing my own song . . don’t get me wrong . . i love my friends and i am very much a people person . . i love learning from people . . listening to their views on life . . picking their brains . . i’m a gemini so i’m a bit of a mixed ball when it comes to emotions!
but my time is so important to me . . my time is my OWN time to reflect on things . . evaluate my life . . my goals . . learn . . read . .develop . . get to know MYSELF . .
i think a lot of people don't spend enough time on their own and are always looking EXTERNALLY for happiness . . or love . . or strength . . or growth . . when they don't spend the time developing from within . . maybe they're scared of what they'll find? or maybe they don't think about life the way i do? i don't know . .
i don’t like big crowds . . never have . . and when i do go out . . my mind is usually preoccupied with what i could be doing better with my time . . .
That’s one of the thing s i’m working on improving about myself . . trying to be “in the moment” . . and not getting ahead of myself . . after all . . all we have are moments . . if you don’t appreciate what you’re doing RIGHT NOW . . you’ll never appreciate what you’re doing in the future . . because you’ll be too preoccupied WITH the future . . make sense?
As a child i was always observant . . perceptive . . always looking at the grown ups and wanting in on what they were doing . . what they were talking about . . seeing how they interacted with one another . .
Not a lot has changed . . i think human behaviour is amazing . . body language . . gestures . . how people act around one another . . how our emotions dictate how we talk to one another . .
I guess that’s why i’m so fascinated with the human body . . it constantly reacts to the stimulus you put on it . . through exercise . . through what you put in your mouth . . always changing . . adapting . . it’s the chance for us to communicate with our own bodies . . and our bodies talk back by getting leaner . . thicker . . more developed . . when you’re feeling angry with it, it doesn’t perform how you want it too . . if you treat it with respect it lets you work it a bit more. . ahh the endless pursuit of the perfect relationship with my body . .