“what’s the point”

You know those days when you think . . 

“what the fuck is the point . . REALLY . . what’s the point . . “

You’re thinking . .

I’m bustin’ my ass, day in, day out . . gotta eat right . . be healthy . .  work long hours . . find time to exercise . . find time to be social . . find time for myself . . figure out what i want . . what i don’t want . . what i need . . who i need . . who to let go of . . what to have for dinner . .

It’s an endless circle of mixed emotions . . ESPECIALLY when you’re starting off on a new adventure in your life . . you worry about everything that could go wrong . . you don’t know what to expect . . you underestimate how much needs to get done . . where to from here . . how much money will i need . . and you become a STRESS HEAD . .

I’m a MAJOR stress head . . i stress out about BEING stressed .. when it comes to work . . about the little things though . .  because i know every decision counts . . and those little things could lead to big things . . yet i’m the complete opposite when it comes to other areas of my life . . and i’ll be really spontaneous . .  free as a bird . . one of my many personalities i suppose.

If i catch myself thinking “what’s the point” . . something needs to change RIGHT THEN.

That’s the exact time in my life where i have to CREATE A POINT . . create a reason why i choose to get up earlier than everybody else . . go to bed later than everybody else . .

It’s not easy . . it’s hard . . to DECIDE to be better . . no excuses . . but i’ve always wanted more for myself . . i knew from a very young age that i’d have to work for what i got . . and i’m ok with that . . patience gets a little thin sometimes but i KNOW i can always give more . . do better . . for ME . . not for anybody else . . because i don’t think that ANY of us were put here on this earth to be comfortable . . complacent . . to sit on our ass . . we’re here to offer each other support . . but most of all to share knowledge & let OUR passion flow over to somebody else’s life when they’re thinking “what’s the point”.

I’ll never understand why you would you ever want to be just energy floating around . . but some people, no matter how much potential they have, just can’t be helped . . sometimes you just have to live your life . . leave them in their little corner and let them figure it out or not figure it out . . .

. . . or you could just kick them up the ass. might work. MAYBE.

“You can spend all your time studying the roots . . or you can pick the fruit.”